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Monday, December 21, 2009
LETTER FROM KYLE
Saturday I received a letter from Kyle. I will give you a short version of it~
Momma,
I'm sorry I have not called or written in such a long time. I really can't express to you the way I am feeling. I wake up every morning felling like a failure. I failed my family, failed my friends and I've failed myself. I feel like I have no hope for the future any more, like all things are lost for me. I've gone too long pretending to be ok with being away from my loved ones. * there are parts where he is very angry that I will not share * I am an emotional mess. It's like the only things I feel now are anger and sorrow. I'm just to the point I'm starting to lose hope. My intentions of writing you this letter were not to hurt you or make you cry. I just don't want you to think I forgot about you. I love you. I am sorry I ever put you through all this shit and caused you so much pain, you did nothing to deserve it. Your the best mom a kid could ever ask for I just blew it. I love you - KYLE KING
please don't come this weekend.
***********MY RESPONSE***********
This has bothered me all weekend. Just knowing your child is in so much pain is excruciating in itself. I cried the majority of the day Saturday after reading the letter. I had planned to drive to see Kyle and take Mike & Cameron too. Despite my better judgment I respected his wishes. We did not go for the visit. It's been a few weeks since I have seen Kyle. I think it was my birthday weekend to be honest. He's asked us not to come. It's like he is punishing himself but what he does not understand is it's punishing us as well. I hate to tell him that because the last thing I want is to hurt him more. I feel stuck and helpless. I'm his mother and the very least I should do is try to make him happy. I can hardly type this my eyes are filled with tears. I am so hurt that I wish I could find comfort myself. I wrote him a letter last night. I tried everything humanly possible to get the point across to him that he is NOT A FAILURE. He's had a minor setback in his life. I also said that I don't believe mistakes make people into failures it's when we don't learn from those mistakes that we fail ourselves. I believe this and I want him to as well. I wish I had the perfect words that would speak to him. I say the same things over and over to him in hopes he understands and takes something more from it than just words on paper. I can't bare the thought of him giving up on himself. I am at a loss and wishing I knew what more I could do other than sending letters and cards almost daily. My heart breaks for him. It honestly does.
I did a little shopping for him so he would not feel left out this Christmas. I got him a few large books of puzzles and mind games. He requested something like that already. I also got him 2 more books. One by Dean Koonts the author he really likes. The other about a football player. Then I got a book for him to do daily starting January 1st. Its a positive saying or quote book. Hopefully this will help at least he'd be reading something good once a day. That is my hopes.
I tried to make it festive for him too. I wrapped everything in tissue paper and tied bows. I am not even sure if this is allowed but I wanted him to have at least something to open during Christams week. I've sent two & three cards and letters a day the last two weeks trying to share the Christmas spirit with him and make sure he knows one thing- I LOVE & MISS HIM DEARLY.
Momma,
I'm sorry I have not called or written in such a long time. I really can't express to you the way I am feeling. I wake up every morning felling like a failure. I failed my family, failed my friends and I've failed myself. I feel like I have no hope for the future any more, like all things are lost for me. I've gone too long pretending to be ok with being away from my loved ones. * there are parts where he is very angry that I will not share * I am an emotional mess. It's like the only things I feel now are anger and sorrow. I'm just to the point I'm starting to lose hope. My intentions of writing you this letter were not to hurt you or make you cry. I just don't want you to think I forgot about you. I love you. I am sorry I ever put you through all this shit and caused you so much pain, you did nothing to deserve it. Your the best mom a kid could ever ask for I just blew it. I love you - KYLE KING
please don't come this weekend.
***********MY RESPONSE***********
This has bothered me all weekend. Just knowing your child is in so much pain is excruciating in itself. I cried the majority of the day Saturday after reading the letter. I had planned to drive to see Kyle and take Mike & Cameron too. Despite my better judgment I respected his wishes. We did not go for the visit. It's been a few weeks since I have seen Kyle. I think it was my birthday weekend to be honest. He's asked us not to come. It's like he is punishing himself but what he does not understand is it's punishing us as well. I hate to tell him that because the last thing I want is to hurt him more. I feel stuck and helpless. I'm his mother and the very least I should do is try to make him happy. I can hardly type this my eyes are filled with tears. I am so hurt that I wish I could find comfort myself. I wrote him a letter last night. I tried everything humanly possible to get the point across to him that he is NOT A FAILURE. He's had a minor setback in his life. I also said that I don't believe mistakes make people into failures it's when we don't learn from those mistakes that we fail ourselves. I believe this and I want him to as well. I wish I had the perfect words that would speak to him. I say the same things over and over to him in hopes he understands and takes something more from it than just words on paper. I can't bare the thought of him giving up on himself. I am at a loss and wishing I knew what more I could do other than sending letters and cards almost daily. My heart breaks for him. It honestly does.
I did a little shopping for him so he would not feel left out this Christmas. I got him a few large books of puzzles and mind games. He requested something like that already. I also got him 2 more books. One by Dean Koonts the author he really likes. The other about a football player. Then I got a book for him to do daily starting January 1st. Its a positive saying or quote book. Hopefully this will help at least he'd be reading something good once a day. That is my hopes.
I tried to make it festive for him too. I wrapped everything in tissue paper and tied bows. I am not even sure if this is allowed but I wanted him to have at least something to open during Christams week. I've sent two & three cards and letters a day the last two weeks trying to share the Christmas spirit with him and make sure he knows one thing- I LOVE & MISS HIM DEARLY.
Friday, December 18, 2009
UGLY CHRISTMAS SWEATER PARTY PICS
I wanted to share pictures with everyone! I had a really good time this year at the party. I want to thank my goofy friends for participating with the theme. Everyone came in tacky sweaters even my friend from Tennessee. Okay I lied~ we had an extra in reserve and she happily wore it! All the gifts brought were great. We all had a good time stealing from each other and the ornaments were fab as always.
~ I LOVE YOU GIRLS~
~ I LOVE YOU GIRLS~
ANDREA'S TACKY SWEATER CHRISTMAS PARTY 2009
~ HAD TO DO SILLY FACES ~ THAT'S HOW WE ROLL ~
The Lovely DIANA HARDEMAN & THE HOSTESS WITH THE MOSTEST
(Come on guys, you know that's funny)
(Come on guys, you know that's funny)
CINDY ANDES ~ ME ~ JANICE MOSIER
CHRIS CRABTREE ~ SANDRA THOMAS ~ NANCY BARTLING
DIANA & TERRI HARDEMAN
ME & VANESSA JOHNSON
BROOKE PEARCE took home the award for BEST OVER ALL TACKIEST OUTFIT~
CHRIS CRABTREE took home the award for BEST TACKY SWEATER.
She went out of her way to rig her sweater with her own lighting system.
AWESOME JOB CHRIS!!! LOVE IT!!
The award for "MAKING A TACKY CHRISTMAS SWEATER LOOK GOOD"
goes to CINDY ANDES ~ You go girl!
NANCY BARTLING singing for her prize~
TERRI dancing for her gift ~ bust a move!
I see NANCY GARCIA in the background wishing it were her dancing!
Played a little game of unwrap the present with oven mitts!
LORI WHITTERN was the winner of a mani or pedi.
Don't get too attached CINDY. FYI: That blanket stayed home with me!
I totally stole it from her playing dirty Santa!
OH YES! Love the hat JANICE MOSIER!
Some hot COUGAR mommas
VANESSA JOHNSON, JANICE MOSIER & CYNDI RAMIREZ
ME & BARBARA ADAMS
(She was in town for her father's surgery)
It's been too long sister ~ I miss you!
US AGAIN
ME & DIANA
TERRIFIC KID AWARD
THE TERRIFIC KID AWARD GOES TO ~ CAMERON ASH!!!
I could not be more proud of this little boy. He shows good behavior, makes very good grades and does what is asked of him by his teachers. He is a caring boy who is always willing to help other students. I am proud he's mine!!!
Yesterday was terrific kids day at Northmoor Elem. The parents were invited to share lunch with their terrific kid. Cameron wanted McDonald's so McDonald's it was.
I could not be more proud of this little boy. He shows good behavior, makes very good grades and does what is asked of him by his teachers. He is a caring boy who is always willing to help other students. I am proud he's mine!!!
Yesterday was terrific kids day at Northmoor Elem. The parents were invited to share lunch with their terrific kid. Cameron wanted McDonald's so McDonald's it was.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
THE EVER GROWING WISH LIST
After shopping for goodies for my party I decided I needed to make a wish list. Why not. I know Mike reads this and there will be zero confusion. ENJOY.
I have wanted one of these Tiffany scroll bracelets for a long time. I think I am due. If I don't get this I may just use some Christmas money and buy it for myself!
@ Dillard's~ Fossil Faux Tortoise Boyfriend Watch
Goes without saying~ MUST HAVE TO ADD TO THE COLLECTION
of over 80 bottles of perfume.
I could use a personal trainer to help motivate me to get off my ass.
Lord knows I need all the help I can get in that area. I figure if you pay for it you are bound to use it and stick to it. Maybe that's just useful thinking on my part too.....
I know! I know! It's an Ove' Glove and YES I WANT ONE!!!
Everlon Diamond Knot Pendent. I think it's BEAUTIFUL!!!
I just LOVE this particular style coach bag! I think I deserve this!!!
The thrifty shopper in me came out for this one. It's $498 on Coach's website.
Saw it at Sam's while Christmas shopping 12/21/09 for $299. You do the math!
WHILE MAKING A WISH LIST THIS BEAUTY SHOULD APPEAR!
2010 Ford Taurus ~ I know who would have thought a Taurus, right??
I saw one at my friend's house and LOVED it!
I don't want to hear a word about this! My brownies are never this perfect.
I WANT THIS DARN THING!!!!
ZAMBEZI ~ 16 piece set (2)
SOHO LOUNGE SQUARE RED ~ 16 piece (2)
CANOPY SQUARE WHITE PORCELAIN
16 piece set (2)
I have wanted one of these Tiffany scroll bracelets for a long time. I think I am due. If I don't get this I may just use some Christmas money and buy it for myself!
@ Dillard's~ Fossil Faux Tortoise Boyfriend Watch
Goes without saying~ MUST HAVE TO ADD TO THE COLLECTION
of over 80 bottles of perfume.
I could use a personal trainer to help motivate me to get off my ass.
Lord knows I need all the help I can get in that area. I figure if you pay for it you are bound to use it and stick to it. Maybe that's just useful thinking on my part too.....
I know! I know! It's an Ove' Glove and YES I WANT ONE!!!
Everlon Diamond Knot Pendent. I think it's BEAUTIFUL!!!
I just LOVE this particular style coach bag! I think I deserve this!!!
The thrifty shopper in me came out for this one. It's $498 on Coach's website.
Saw it at Sam's while Christmas shopping 12/21/09 for $299. You do the math!
WHILE MAKING A WISH LIST THIS BEAUTY SHOULD APPEAR!
2010 Ford Taurus ~ I know who would have thought a Taurus, right??
I saw one at my friend's house and LOVED it!
I don't want to hear a word about this! My brownies are never this perfect.
I WANT THIS DARN THING!!!!
ZAMBEZI ~ 16 piece set (2)
SOHO LOUNGE SQUARE RED ~ 16 piece (2)
CANOPY SQUARE WHITE PORCELAIN
16 piece set (2)
Sunday, December 13, 2009
IT'S THE LITTLE THINGS
Today was a great day to say the very least!!!
I achieved goal #1 ~ get my house ready for the holiday season. I started with finally getting the main tree in the living room decorated. It's my version of a mini winter wonderland. It has bright colored snowflakes on a white ribbon as garland. Then layers in nothing but hats, sweaters, mittens, snowflakes & SNOWMEN!! I only displayed about 1/4 of the snowmen I usually display. Maybe next year I'll get an earlier jump on my decorating. The stockings are hung on the mantel that is also full of snowmen and plenty of white lights. I love the snowmen because they do not have to come down right after Christmas Day. Snow does not end just because Christmas is over.
I must comment on this picture because I just love how at peace Mr. King is on the couch. That is exactly how I feel now that my house is festive. I just want to lay on the couch and stare off and think about good times. Like how much fun my boys have had at home on Christmas mornings past or how we would turn out all the lights and lay around the living room just using the glow from the tree and decorations while watching Christmas movies.
Is most definatly the little things that mean the most to me during this season.
Is most definatly the little things that mean the most to me during this season.
The remainder of the day was spent baking, taste testing and girl talk with Cyndi. I made quite a mess with the flour and I must say that stirring is not an easy task. The more stuff you add to the batter the harder it gets to stir. I know my arm will be sore tomorrow. We made fudge (never attempted before in my life), no bake cookies, chocolate chip cookies w/pecans & oatmeal cookies w/coconut & pecans. I sure enjoyed hanging out with Cyndi today. It was much needed. Remember she has a cute website with lots of great food ideas and a blog. Check it out!
WWW.CUPCAKESANDCASSEROLES.COM
WWW.CUPCAKESANDCASSEROLES.COM
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
15 DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS
Let me start with this, everything in my house is upside down and overwhelming. I've had good intentions but something is missing. Then as I'm comfy & cozy watching TV I hear them say 15 days until Christmas. WHAT??? I can do the math but for some reason hearing it got to me JUST NOW!!I stayed positive all day at the office actually looking forward to getting home so I could decorate for the season and enjoy the finished product with my family. Ooppss got too cozy. Facebook was entertaining and I got in touch with a girl I went to elementary school with. It did not take much to distract me from what obviously needs to be finished.
I usually have this all completed the weekend of Thanksgiving. Here's the thing. My husband has had the lights up since the first 1st of December. He even took all my bins (0ver 10) down from the attic in hopes I would do the rest. He's done his part! My house is usually a snowman's haven. I am a collector. Everyone knows too so I feel doubly obligated. I can tell you almost every ornament that was given to me by who and at what event. I know weird but that's me!! I just don't have the oomph or spirit this year. I've put more effort into this post then I have my decorating. As I type this Mike has fallen asleep and snoring next to our poor pathetic non decorated tree. I took advantage of the moment. He will appreciate me for it too.
I NEED A DRASTIC SHOT OF HOLIDAY FESTIVENESS!!
My house has to go through a major transformation and quickly. I am hosting a party next Tuesday for the love of everything unholy. Somethings got to give! I feel guilty and even embarrassed.
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